Realising ! Realised

I could feel it , I could feel it straight from the centre of my stomach till the edge of my mouth , I could feel that I know nothing , I know not even my parents and myself . I guess while growing up away the major part of me did not realise that what it takes to maintain a relationship . Any relationship . 

I grew up with not a drop of fairytale love. All I knew was existed in books and movies and believed that I will make them come true. Just like these uncertain times , uncertainty dawned me . I realised I was wrong all along , It's not until hard work that a relationship will survive.  I came across my friends calling me and crying over  calling off their own relationships. I felt everyone were bored of distance, could not just put in hard work to eliminate the habit of them staying together while they had while the times were simpler and other any it's not you it's me reason. 

I realised because seeing the crowd get attracted towards common issues during lockdown , I did not wish the same for my relationship. I was realising the need to save my relationship , providing support to it. 

It's so tenacious and also full of pretence. So many things like , "Yes , Love. am fine " ; or ; " I Love You Too". Sometimes I feel I love you gets so much in mind that it is no longer revealing its true meaning but a different one , and which is to make someone remind constantly that " I Love You ( hope you remember ) ", " I love you too ( Of course I remember hope you remember too )"

This clash of foggy things and growing up , stepping to make your decisions from realisation you have had and what you want to feel in future , and realising what to do at present is always a hard work. It's so is tough to never be sure of what you do until the response turns on your favour. 

Realising and realised are not different if we could learn from realised , and we know exactly when tomorrow I think about it , I should have a good realisation . Think about it Realise with your realisation.